26 sept'08-5 oct '08

Pendek kata, this is the best holiday of all. I enjoy myself to the fullest.

haha.. something bad actually happened towards the end of my holiday. I had my last dinner(7pm) with MJ n wiN at a cafe. When i walk off my dinner table, i asked them help to keep an eye on my bag(containing wallet'with all my money i intended to bring along to johor and hanphone). Later, when i'm back on the table, i asked them where's my bag. They said:"dunno ar..". I knew they were playing hike and seek. So i didn't bother to asked them again. After dinner, we when back to our Penang SGM cultural center(PGCC) for our band practise. Until when practise come to an end(10pm), I wanted to make a phone call. I seek high and low but i couldn't find my phone. I wonder where did i misplace them. (a minute later.. oh yah, they were having my bag since dinner) So i asked them, where's my bag. They both got shocked and quickly ran back to the cafe. At that time i was still calm. i just when along with them. We ask the owner of the cafe, wondering any of their worker found my bag. We when asking some of their worker as well. They all saw no. MJ and wiN got really panic and kept trying to apologize. but i'm still calm haha..MJ then told her parents about it. So i just said to her parents, "nevermind, i shall just lodged a police report."

MJ's dad&another 2 uncle accompany me to that cafe again. They went asking around for me. Lastly, we asked a stall nearby the table we were sitting just now. haha.. The auntie said a kid walk pass and saw my bag on the chair. Then the kid leave the bag to that auntie wondering the owner might have be back. (finnally, everyone is releave now. especially MJ n wiN) I thank the auntie and uncles a lot of time. MJ thanked them as well. The auntie and the kid that found my bag was a very honest person. All my belongging were still inside. THANK YOU!! :)

I told them both it's okay. Don't have to feel bad about it. Everything is fine now. Its just a lesson. We are always different from others because we are Gakkai members, we chant daimoku with the believe of Mystic Law. Shoten Zenjin(protective power) is always there to protect us. (smile) Go home and get a good rest. Greet me with a morning smile when we meet again tommorow at practice.

I went home and chanted one hour to thank the kid that found my bag and the hawker auntie for being my shoten zinjin. Thanks to the uncles' effort in helping me so much as well. THANK YOU!


These are my random pixs:

Why do I say it's an amazing week'end'? Well, its suppose to be my final weekend in Johor before I take my second school break (yea~!going back to PENANG). But~! I didn't spend that weekend in Johor. (haha..)

Since Monday(25-Aug-2008) I'm so so sick!! Really can't take MJ & wiN of my head. Even the song "AND THE FIRE RAGED!!" got stuck in my ear. OH!! Can't believe i don't feel like eating for almost a week time. For sure, i fit my self with lunch. But dinner, not really. Only force my self to have 2 slice of bread.

With the power of daimoku, things get better each day. As in Tuesday, i still cry, but only when people asked, "so how's your holiday?". arh~!! can't help my self again!! It totally drag me back into hell. I stopped crying since Wednesday. Time and daimoku is the best cure for sure. I add on my chanting and amazingly, I ended up chanting for 2 hours. Sometimes even hit up to 2H 30M.

But time ain't enough for me. Will be facing quiz and test in a week time. I lose my concentration. Couldn't study at all. My heart is feeling so tight. I can't released it.(feels like a cramp on my chest) At that time, i only think of daimoku. But Joey is catching a rest, I can't be disturbing her. I then message MJ, but it isn't helping. Then a wisdom came across my mind. It's Cheng Ling. I went to her door but found that her knob was lock. ARHH~!!! (help!! no way man!! com'on how!?) I immediately grab my phone and sms Cheng Ling. I know she's sleeping. But i really need to chant right away. I know she would open the door for me. YES! She really did open her door and let me in. I know I'm disturbing her, I'm sorry. After chanting for half an hour. I felt so much better and get set my mood back to stable. THANK YOU CHENG LING. REALLY THANK YOU! YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN DO ME THAT BIG FAVOR. THANK YOU!

Soon things get better, I got my perfect smile back on my face when i went for a Batu Pahat Malam Mesra practise. There i met a few Soka friends(non-SGI members) who reminds me of MJ n wiN. Talking to them is like talking to MJ n wiN, it really brings me back to life. So great!! Cheer-up MENDY ONG!!

My life came back to normal until this morning..

MONDAY-25 AUG '08

Reached Batu Pahat Bus terminal at about 8.40am. Glad that my morning class was canceled. So together with Cheng Ling and another 2 course mate’s guy we met in bus, took a taxi. Cheng Ling and I went back to hostel where the other 2 guys went to uni.

I first greet Cheng Ling's roommate when I reached home cause i found my roommate were still sleeping. Slowly I unpacked my luggage. Refolded my shirts & susun them back into my cabinet. Then when my roommate (Joey) were awake, we did a spring cleaning together with Cheng Ling and Hui(Cheng Ling's roommate). After when everything were done, I took a bath. Lastly, I kneel down and offer my morning prayers.

While chanting, i felt my eyes flooded with tears. I don’t know why!! Out of a sudden, these two girls pop up in my head!!

~MJ & wiN~

I really can't help myself. I can't even continue chanting. My tears just can't stop flowing. I quickly end my chanting and then when to the bathroom and wash my cloths. I was crying so badly. I brush my cloths loudly and keep the tap water running at a high speed so that no one would notice my sobbing. I force myself so hardly to stop the tears.

Don't even feel like having my lunch, But I don't want my friends to worry bout me. So I force myself to have a little bit of rice. Can't keep my eyes away from watching my handphone. It just didn't vibrate. In the midst of super boring lecture, I cannot tahan d. So I send a chinese sms to MJ asking didn't she miss me. She then replied."haha.. hu teached u 1.. or u write ur self? so many wrong words.. haha! tats a gud try! miz me meh? i think u ll 4get us lo. haha! juz jok". I was smiling, but my tears roll down again. arh!!!! She makes me feel the relationship between us as they kept calling me “mummy” when I was on my sem break in Penang last week. We continue to sms a few, then I asked to stop sms cause I really can't help myself to stop crying in the class. So crazy me!!

I was crying every hour! After class I message MJ again. Then she says she wants to chant along. We both chanted together on the same time but from different places with the same prayer objectives for half an hour that evening. I'm still crying while I chant actually. After the chanting, I was too tired. Due to a long journey back from Penang, so I took a short nap. Then I awake and continue chanting. Again I sms MJ to give her support for the performance that night. I was so nervous for them. So so sad that I didn't get to perform for the 1st time after joining Fifes & Drums Corps for 12 years. Perhaps, it’s time to learn how to let go a little bit. By the way, it was also the first time ever in any section of the band that actually no senior players to support the section cause we only have 2 seniors in this section which is Teng Chew and I. Teng Chew were conducting for that song. I’M SO PROUD OF YOU, MING JIE & WINNIE!!

I have a class again at 8pm till 10pm. Before I go for my class, I offered my evening prayers and chanted for half an hour. Don’t feel like having my dinner at all, so again I force myself to drink a cup of Milo(~.~!! I spilt half of it). The nervous in me never go away. I chanted along the way as I travel to my class from hostel. My class never starts on time. So I quickly played “And The Fire Rage!” at about 8.05pm which I’ve recorded yesterday during the practice. I can tell you, I’m feeling the hall at BTCC(penang). I don’t know why, the tears never end flowing again and again from my eyes.

After class, I was still nervous because I’m waiting for a victory report from MJ as she have promise to let me know. Staring at my phone like a crazy person just drive me nuts! Not long after that I receive an sms.

From MJ : hei mum! We finished our performance d! on the way home.. do OK! But my real mum said not as loud as ystrday’s prac.. cause BTCC very big ma.. bt still ok! Haha! 2ml no skul! Tat’s our present frm M’sai! Haha! Daddy cum n said thx to us.. he looks happy like a baby..he is “…..” rite? Haha!

We continue with a few sms and we bedded each other good night. It has been a long-long day for both of us.

I was glad that everything were doing fine. Still I was crying. Crying throughout the whole day really make me tired, my eyes & head were so aching that even make me feels like knocking my head at the walls .I have been living in the lowest life-states today. Luckily I have daimoku (Chanting Nam-Myo-Ho-Renge-Kyo). I can’t believe I’ve chanted for 1 hour and 25 minutes that day. But I know that’s the only best thing I can do. Thank you, I knew prayers have been helping me a lot and kept me positive at all times.

I MISS BOTH MY DAUGHTER A LOT!!

Its a Friday..

My phone vibrate.. my alarm can't stop snoozing!! my eyes too lazy to open.. pressed on the cancel button don't know how many times. But the weird thing is, there's a picture on the screen. huh? since when i set picture on my alarm. ALAMAK!! I've been canceling calls. I then quickly call back. It was Kim. She asked me out. I said OkIE. So coincidentally i was free for lunch.

We when out at 12noon. Then we head towards Pragin Mall. When we were in front of Komtar, suddenly Kim asked whether I'm free to Prai.

I repleid, "Y not?!"
Kim: Aiyo.. Why didn't u say that earlier?
me: hey, you didn't ask, how would i know.
Kim: Sure bo? U free until wat time?
me: i'm quite free actually. As long as i reached home by 7pm.
Kim: Then we go there 3 hours enough la..
me: ok la..
Kim:Sure?
me:yeah!
Kim: wait i go home change 1 shirt 1st..
me: huh?? ~.~!!

haha.. off we go. We went to JUSCO, Bukit Mertajam. It was the 1st day opening. Lots of people.

The 1st thing was we hunt for brunch. hmm.. It's a high class building but nothing special i would say. So we decided to eat at food court then we met Cheah & Fong Kuan. haha.. No place to sit. We have to go grab fast food.

My day 6 here..

I really lost my memory. I kept forgetting things. I went and make a facial appointment with my friend at 10.30am went I've promise BenT3nG to meet up at 11am.. so syet of me. I totally forgot that i was suppose to meet at Greenlane McD. Sorry gurlz. When i was doing my facial half-way, Annie actually called and scold me. (Sorry Annie™) i did meet them anyway. Obviosly i was late. I turned up at 1.30pm. Well, we still manage to catch up a little ups and down on our very own lifestyle in diff universities. haha.. miss yah all..

Day 5 came running into my life. I was back on Saturday night at about 6.30pm i reached Sg. Nibong Bus Terminal. With a wave to CL&bf, we both went our separate ways after sitting next to next for 9 hours. Coincidentally Guat were back from KL on the same day & time.. haha.. so it ease my elder sis to pick us up at the time.

I went home and 1st greed my grandma. 5 minutes later, off i went to Penang Kaikan (SGM Pg Cultural Center). It was a surprise for everyone at the band practise. None of them i had a sem break from university. WAHAHA!! both my jr came running.. with Glistning eyes.. Well their eyes turn red. Both them say they can predict that i will be coming to the practise. Winnie said she dreamt of me coming bek the night before. Ming Jie said she suddently tot of me coming back the day before.. :) COOL HUH??!